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2001-12-01 - 1:29 p.m. -
did not sleep well last night.
did not get to sleep until after 4am.
restless. edgy.
i feel like i�m waiting for the preverbal shoe to drop.
having a hard time getting thoughts on paper.
finding it hard to focus on anything.
just in a strange place right now.
need lots of coffee to shake the cobwebs out of my head.
need a long road trip.
need to feel the road beneath me.
wonder if this is a �fight or flight� response to something
wonder if perhaps i just think too damn much.
a lot of people around me are feeling the same way.
its like the whole world is holding it�s breath. -------------- ------------ ----------- ----------- i am working on a knife for a friend of mine.
there is something comforting about it.
not the knife per se, but the work.
i am at ease working on arms & armor.
my hands know what to do without having to think about it.
taking pieces of history & making them look good.
there is a lot of zen in all of this.
the quiet meditation when working on an object.
the relaxation of cleaning 10,000 connected mail rings
noticing the differences in each one
notice how the differences create a unifying whole.
the world drops away when i am in this space.
my head empties of thought.
when i am in that moment, i become a beautiful person.
i want to live in that moment.
i want to always feel that way. ------------- ---------------------------- -------- Today�s Stats
Coffee Count: 5 mugs
Cigarettes: 4
Candy: one large Life Saver
Now Playing: silence ----------------- ---------------------------- ---- �It�s not getting any smarter out there. You have to come to terms
with stupidity, and make it work for you.�
-Frank Zappa
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