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since wednesday night i have been redoing the bathroom in the apartment. i replaced the wallboard behind the sink & by the doorway, recut & reinstalled the shelves, patched the ceiling, installed a new light & dimmer switch, installed a new medicine cabinet, patched & scraped, grouted the tub & installed a splash guard. this morning i started painting. i finished the first coat of wall paint, washed the brushes & got ready to paint the ceiling. that is when the tub upstairs leaked. streaks of water running down the fresh coat of paint on the new wall. bits of ceiling patch falling to the floor. moments like this i feel like the whole world is out to make me look stupid. moments like this� i feel stupid & wonder why i even thought i could do this in the first place. what made me think i was capable of fixing something? failure rings in my head & once again i end up feeling like a big disappointment to everyone. come one, come all. see the amazing bill. watch as he snatches defeat from the jaws of victory. see this future member of the hall of shame blow it yet again. yes, its fun for all at the crash-n-burn circus!! logically, i know that this is not my fault. but logic is on holiday right now & i feel very small. -------------- -------------------- ------------------- a coffee & a smoke later i�m back at it. i�m still frustrated & pissed, but i�m also determined to get this done. i refuse to slump my shoulders & raise the well-worn white flag this time. i�ll get the project done one way or another. i will not let a little leak make me feel small. wish me luck. i could use it right now. thanks for letting me vent. i�ll update later. be well. |
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