so, first off�
Daily Mouse has two gigs this weekend.
tonight they are at Rusty�s Gallery Caf� starting at 8pm. tomorrow is the big CD
release party at Woodland Spice & Tea starting at 8pm. you should go & check them out. get more info on the gigs here. tell them i sent you.
happy birthday kae!! hope the day is full of joy & wonder for you.
had a good night last night hanging out wit some old friends at the hut. was nice to have my favorite damn yankee back in town (even if it was only for a night.) it was also very nice to see lia again. it has been a ling time since i�ve had a chance to just sit & chat with her. (& yes lia, you have come a long way & you are doing great.) there are times i miss just hanging out & shooting the shit with some friends. i need to start doing that more. i need that contact.
i forget sometimes just how much i need contact. i left the hut last night feeling better than i had in days. there is something wonderfully simple about people sitting around a table drinking coffee & sharing stories that just restores the soul.
there was a time (many a moon ago) when i would spend the whole night just sitting & talking with people. times when i would have people at my house just drinking coffee & talking. everything from deep debates about human nature & religion, to babbling about music & movies. we ate & talked & fucked & laughed & cried & yelled & played & made art & made music & made trouble & made bonds & existed as something much more completed than a family. people came & went, drifting in & out of my life, but there was the constant feeling that there was more to it than just a bunch of people who hung out together.
now, years later, i find myself with a circle that is growing smaller & smaller with every passing year. friends are replaced by acquaintances, deep talk is replaced by business talk. i don�t want my �glory days� back (if i even had any), i just want that feeling of belonging back. that feeling of being something more than who i am, of being part of the larger picture.
as the group gets older & takes on more �adult� rolls, it seems like we hold back more, when we should be letting go more & leaning on each other because the stakes are so much larger then they were when we were younger & immortal. we replaced our jobs with careers, our wild nights & road trips with families & mortgages. we are forced to look at responsibility as an obligation instead of an option. we took the chip off our shoulders & put the world on our backs.
there are times i think we forget just how dynamic we are, or worse, think we can never be as dynamic as we once were. & the sad part is, we will never be that dynamic again unless we do it as a group. unless we mix the old & new, draw on what we are sharing & become who we can be, we are destined to simply fade into the footnotes of our own histories.
we were greater than the sum of our parts. we forget that. we scatter to the winds & wonder why, years later, we feel like something is missing. well, something is missing� we are. we miss each other like a hand misses a finger. we are incomplete & we know it. now what do we do about it?
i guess the irony of all of this ranting is that i�m not in a bad mood today. just feeling nostalgic & a bit homesick. perhaps i�ll give myself a mohawk & listen to the DKs tonight. that will clear the head.
more later.
be well.
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Today�s Stats
Coffee Count: 5 mugs
Cigarettes: 7
Candy: none
Now Playing: Soul Coughing Lust in Phaze
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� Engine sputters ghosts out of gasoline fumes
They say You had it, but you sold it�
-M. Doughty
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much thanks to the lovely & talented lauren for finding this quiz.
i love the poem it is based on. think i�ll read it on sunday just to tweak people out. 
You will swallow some tacks. You are a little
weird, maybe not so much in a good way. Buy a
yellow tie and wear it on your head.
What horrible Edward Gorey Death will you die?
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