first off�.
quick announcement about some shows this weekend�
Daily Mousehas two shows this weekend. friday they will be at Java Hut� saturday they will be at The Kingdom. both of these are in worcester go to theDaily Mouse website for more info. Sou also has a solo poetry feature on sunday at the Java Hut.
make it a mousy weekend. **squeek**
now back to the diaryland entry already in progress�
still not feeling like myself today.
very shaky & on edge & don�t know what is going on. i�m wondering if the low-level stress that i�ve been under for years if finally catching up to me� like a sea slowly washing away the cliffs� & i�m finally starting to crumble. the major stress comes & goes & you can get through it because you know it will end soon. but this constant grind� no wonder i feel worn down, i am.
the trouble (outside of feeling like i�m slowly falling apart) is that there is no real fix to any of this. it is not like i can just make the stress go away, its not that simple. i need to find a way to reduce the affect it is having on me & that is where i get hung up. i am thinking of trying yoga again, but i get frustrated when i can�t do something & trying to get into some of the yoga poses when you are in the shape i am can be frustrating. i�ve tried the yoga tapes a few times, but i end up feeling like a linebacker in a ballet class.
i�ve started meditating again but it is slow going. it has been a long time since i meditated on a regular basis & you can�t just pick up where you left off with it, but i also think that it might be my best chance to get a handle on things. now that the warmer weather is here i�m thinking of setting up a meditation area in my yard where i can go just to relax. (besides, unlike yoga, meditation, does not require that i be able to touch my toes to my forehead.)
off to providence tonight to catch the slam. hoping a nice drive with the music playing & a warm cup of coffee will help calm me a bit. if not, at least it will get me out of the house for the night.
more tomorrow.
be well.
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Today�s Stats
Coffee Count: 5 mugs
Cigarettes: 8
Candy: some Smints
Now Playing: none
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�This is what happens when you send a dyke to do a fags� job.�
-Brian from Queer As Folk
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we already knew this too� 
you are a depressed poet, you are sad most of the
time and thats what you write about, you
probably listen to Dashboard and lable yourself
"emo", if someone doesn't hold you
when you cry, you feel very alone, oh well the
depressed poems are always the best
what kind of poetry are you?
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