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2003-09-16 - 3:55 p.m. -



lets start with the headlines�
first up� we all wish we could do �something� about the troubles in the world. then some of us find a way, no matter how small, to do something. like her or not, at least she is trying & that is more than i can say about most people.

then we move on to the sports page. a sad day for women�s sports. i can�t believe that the WWF makes millions but we can�t keep women�s soccer afloat. i find it very disappointing, but sadly not surprising.

then, of course, there is the �why is this even news� story of the day.

i�ll give a dollar to anyone who can make Bennifer just go away.

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They that can give up essential liberty to obtain a little temporary safety deserve neither liberty nor safety.
-Benjamin Franklin

A government that robs Peter to pay Paul can always depend upon the support of Paul.
-Bernard Shaw

How can you govern a country which has 246 varieties of cheese?
-Charles De Gaulle

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got my annual review at work today. overall a very good evaluation. the only thing that is marked as needing change is my procrastinating on work. so, knowing this, i will spend the rest of today procrastinating.

there is a good reason i don�t work for some fortune 500 company. they would not put up with this shit.

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Hurricane!!
run for your lives� we all gonna DIE!!

um� yeah. whatever.

so my building manager & i are now trying to come up with the best �storm plan� we can think of. the one we are leaning toward is covering the entire building in blue drop cloths. (kind of like a Christo installation) our only fear is that they may thing we are serous & we�ll get stuck wrapping the building. i do like the idea though. hummm�. i wonder�

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on a completely non-silly note (for a change)�
i�ve got a nasty self-righteous streak in me. i don�t know where it comes from, but it is something i have been noticing more & more in myself over the past few years. it has probably always been there, just for some reason i am becoming much more aware of how much of a prick i can sound like sometimes. this is something that bothers me.

i like to think i�m a likeable guy most of the time, & most of the time i tend to let shit just pass. but there are times when something hits me the wrong way & instead of addressing it in a calm or rational manner i go off the handle & end up not solving anything (or making things worse) & making an ass of myself in the process. lately there are times i find myself doing this & wonder why i�m getting so worked up. no one likes the know-it-all jackass & yet i that is who i am sometimes.

now, the big question is what to do about it?

i have been trying to be more aware of when i get like this in the hope that i can stop myself before i say something i really shouldn�t. i�m trying to find patterns in my behavior in the hope that i can make changes in what i�m doing. i�m trying to figure out where this all comes from & perhaps, by understanding the roots of my moods, change how i view things. i�m trying� i really am trying.

i wonder if this is part of getting older. we reexamine ourselves & start changing or discarding the parts that don�t fit anymore. perhaps i�m just growing up. (finally) it is hard to change patterns i�ve been in for God knows how long. but, like many other things, i find that perhaps the effort is well worth it & long overdue. i�m finding that i am trying to become the person i used to think i was. maybe it�s time for me to live up to my own expectations.

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there, how is that for a mixed bag of stuff? time to get out of here & head on home. more tomorrow. hope you all have a good night.

be well.