2002-01-22 - 3:42 p.m. -




paint
my job is all about the paint right now.
what is the right color?
what shade of yellow works with what shade of black?
(who knew there were so many shades of black?)

the rub is i can�t just pick a color.
there are colors that are off limits.
for example, you can�t show japanese objects with
a white background because white is the color of mourning in japan.
red is a safe bet, but you can�t use red with islamic pieces
green is safe for islamic objects, but not english objects.
& on & on etc ect.
it�s enough to drive you nuts.

i�ve spent the whole day looking at paint chips.
finding colors, getting samples, testing.
i have cases that are 9 colors right now.
yellow yellow everywhere�
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not much to say today.
feeling the weight of the world.
there are times i don�t want to be the strong one.
there are times i have no choice.

repeat the mantra�
it will all work out
we will be ok
it will all work out
we will be ok
it will all work out
we will be ok

sometimes it works
most of the time i�m just fooling myself.
just doing what i can
feeling like time is running out.
like peter grabbed me before i could pay paul.
i am a clock spring
wound & running
but moving in circles.
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Today�s Stats
Coffee Count: 7 mugs
Cigarettes: 8
Candy: none
Now Playing: the ticking of the clock.
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�It�s smarter to be lucky than it�s lucky to be smart.�
-Bob Fosse