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2002-07-12 - 2:22 p.m. -
yesterday was a good day.
today on the other hand�
plans for sitters while i�m at the nationals have blown up in my face. now comes the mad dash to try to find childcare for a spastic 3 year old while i�m half way across the country & my wife is in the midwest. i was hoping for so much more from my summer. seems like i spend all of my time rushing from one disaster to another. there are high points, but that just brings me back to zero when it all gets worked out. Its like saying, �yeah, you got flooded out, but at least the rain stopped.� i keep hitting myself in the head with a hammer because it feels so good when i stop. baby duty tonight.
looking forward to just sitting on the stoop with a cup of coffee & a smoke, spending the evening shouting obscure 80�s rock lyrics at passing cars. i need to unwind. thought i was finally going to break out of this funk i�ve been in. so much for that happy horseshit. still have 4 � poems to get done before sunday. at least someone in my house is being creative. i just wish it was me every now & then. so much for ending the week in a happy note.
can�t afford pizza this weekend & i�m trying to avoid watching TV. perhaps i�ll just kick the cats around the house tonight. it�s mean, but they make such a wonderful �whummp� sound when you catch them just right. plus they always land on their feet. or i could just have that good cry i�ve needed for about 3 years. we�ll see how much the cats have shed before making a decision.
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take a moment this weekend & let the person you love know how important they are to you. go out & make a friend, make love, make a difference. be wonderful. believe. ------------------------ ----------------------------
Today�s Stats
Coffee Count: 6 mugs
Cigarettes: 11
Candy: a whole box of Smints
Now Playing: Peter Mulvey �Rain�
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�I know you are hurting
I see you tied up in knots over there
but these are the days we are given
they are precious
we must live them, I swear
this could be the last warm day
in a cold and ugly November
when it�s all over
what are you going to remember?�
-Peter Mulvey
from the song November & Calvin & Hobbs
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