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Daily Mouse w/ Mark Mandeville go & see them. it will be fun. tell them that i sent you� dumped a lot of stuff on my wife last night, most of which i think was just my headspace being projected onto her. i put her in a really bad space. said a lot of things in all the wrong ways & managed to upset both of us. she has found things that bring her joy but, in my quest to get my act together, i feel like i�m screwing it up for her. robbing her joyful Peter to pay my moody Paul. if this were an armor i could fix it. remove the rust & dirt, fix the straps, clean & protect it, make it like it was. i am worthless when it comes to emotional things. if i can�t clean it, paint it, or bang it with a hammer, i don�t know how to make it better. i keep forgetting that everything in my life is amplified right now. a psychological magnifying glass that is blowing everything i feel out of proportion. i am hypersensitive & taking almost everything the wrong way. if i could just remember this things would be fine. but i get swept up in my emotional whirlwinds & the next thing you know i�ve left a path of destruction behind me. it�s not fair to those around who find themselves in my path. i have become inappropriate for most occasions. i need to learn to keep my mouth shut & my emotions in check. if you go see Daily Mouse tonight buy my wife a coffee. she could use one right now. i feel like i paint her in a bad light sometimes & that is not fair. she is a wonderful, talented, beautiful woman. she just has an emotional putz for a husband. |
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