tired & my finger hurts.
(just caught it with a set punch)
but the air outside is warm, the sun is out, the ice is melting & at least for right now, spring is very close.
i know, they are predicting snow tomorrow� but that is tomorrow. right now, it is nice & i�m slowly learning to enjoy what i�ve got at the moment & to let tomorrow look after itself. i�ve spent too much of my life worrying about �later� & no where near enough time reveling in �now�. i can�t keep waiting for the big prize, i have to take the small gifts as they come. can�t keep putting my soul on hold for the sake of others. i need to be who i am & hope people can accept it.
now i just need to remember who i am.
i have not been painting much the past few weeks, but i�ve started writing again. starting to get �road trip fever� & an urge to roar onstage again. i feel like i�m coming out of a long hibernation & now i can see the world anew. i want to cut my hair & free my head. want to look in the mirror & recognize the person i see. i can feel the world lifting from my back. it is so close i can almost touch it. i can feel new leaves shaping beneath my skin. after so long, i feel like i�m alive & growing again.
God, dear God
please let this feeling last awhile.
i need to be whole again.
more later.
be well.
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Today�s Stats
Coffee Count: 5 mugs
Cigarettes: 8
Candy: none
Now Playing: the news
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�I feel my best when I�m happy.�
-Winona Ryder
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so, i took this test & got � 
You're nothing, really. But you're nice.
What type of music are you?
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� so i took the test again & changed one answer�
Rock on, dude! You are Punk music!
What type of music are you?
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� so i guess i fall somewhere between the two. (but i knew that already)
